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Spectacular Flowers, Seaside Jaunt And My Kick-Ass Box Destruction Rampage!

AKA my freaking awesome Saturday

huge trusses of Kakabeak blossom in Day's Bay, Wellington

Gobsmacking aren't they? Imagine a whole bank of Kakabeaks absolutely covered with huge trusses of flowers like these. Last Saturday I wanted to do my Live video on a beach, buy custard squares from the best custard square maker in Wellington to celebrate a breakthrough, and have an outing with my beloved. The spectacular photos are the icing on the cake!

Wednesday, August 30, 2017/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (0)/Comments ()/ Article rating: No rating
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Why you can’t do a half-assed job of self-healing even when you want to

pink throated arum lilies in Wellington's Botanical Gardens last spring

Whatever you want to have, whatever you want to be, you have to choose to become it within before it will ever appear without. So you declare yourself to yourself. Then every part of you which doesn't align with your declaration queues up in a line, to ask "What about me? What you gonna do about me? Can't shut me up, can't kill me, how you gonna help me shift from where I am to where we all need to go?"

Monday, June 5, 2017/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (609)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 5.0
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Why I eat dessert first and refuse to work hard

twilight at York Bay looking across Wellington harbour

Something big changed: if I see the sun come out on a grey day and I can stop for 10 minutes to go get some, I do. If there's something I want to do for myself I no longer wait until the end of my 'working' day to do it. I just turn off the timer and do what I want to do. Then carry on. The whole thing of "eat your veges before your dessert" is gone ...

Monday, May 29, 2017/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (578)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 5.0

It's finally happening ... I'm leaving the woods and heading for abundant sunshine!

... energy work is dead ... long live energy work!

geranium maderense in spring sunshine

When it comes, long awaited breakthrough is surprisingly unassuming and still unexpected. How can you ever expect that which you previously couldn't imagine?

Monday, October 31, 2016/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (3381)/Comments ()/ Article rating: No rating
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Escaping the dungeon of surprising and self-limiting beliefs

... and the best gift I could ever want for my 50th birthday

my neighbour's camellia tree contrasts bright blue winter sky

How shall I tell the story of twists and turns within myself, solving layer after layer of illusion like dungeon levels in a computer game, rewriting encrypted codes so deep even the programmers didn't recognise the process of their creation?

Thursday, August 25, 2016/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (1099)/Comments ()/ Article rating: No rating
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I’ve escaped the menacing clock and I’ll be home in No-Time

... journey out of Pied Piper Land

Wellington Harbour as still as a millpond

spacious timelessness descends into whirlwind, slows to zero ... time-slave no more ... clock eluded my own rhythm asserts after 45 years driven, automaton, must keep going ... "get busy, you must earn!" ... who told you so long ago this is how it's done?

Tuesday, June 28, 2016/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (1722)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 5.0
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my crazy landslide month of startling abundance

D'you know what it's like when Abundance starts to arrive?

... Kapiti Island and sparkling sea from the Pukerua Bay lookout ...

Something big is happening. Something profound in me has changed, enough to allow a landslide of abundant connections, releases and healings, most of them in the last 30 days ...

Wednesday, May 4, 2016/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (2207)/Comments ()/ Article rating: No rating
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Power, beauty and teamwork in action - poetry in motion

... the fabulous Fresian stallion Crystal Mt Xodo ridden by Fiona Craig ...

A couple of weeks back a friend asked if I'd like to come with her to the Bates NZ Dressage Championships, just for the evening Grand Prix Competition. First off I said no, but I had a look at the website and that was a 'big' mistake ... my beloved convinced me this was an opportunity I should embrace, and then I realised I could take my camera ... 618 images later I can share my best shots with you ...

Tuesday, February 16, 2016/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (995)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 5.0
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3 rewrites that freed me from family pain (and my demolition derby update)

... brilliant sunshine and solar halo on new year's day ...

This month I walked away from the mythical illusion of 'family'. The idea of 'this is where you belong, this is where it's safe' and 'family are there for you more than anyone else'. This year I finally understood why I haven't enjoyed Christmas for a very long time, and painful though it was I got a whole new understanding of what Friends, Family and Relatives are to me. Not at all what they're 'supposed' to be ...

Saturday, January 16, 2016/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (1683)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 5.0
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I've lost hope and it's WONDERFUL! Now, which way is up again?

... blurred beauty, reflections in the rain, fuzzy light in the dark ...

What happened? Who was I a couple of weeks back, to be so completely overwhelmed, fried, torqued past breaking point, then to shift, and now it's a dim memory which happened to somebody else? Where did I go? Through some turn-me-inside-out portal into an alternative reality? My brain boggles, can't grasp whatever it is I'm trying to see, like the sculptor chipping away at a huge block of stone with no idea what might be revealed ...

Monday, October 19, 2015/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (1263)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 5.0
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