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How to stop fighting feelings and experiences you’re certain you’ll resist for ever

... the peerless beauty of a lily wide open to life ...

Accepting whatever's going on in your life as a step toward healing is a great idea in theory, but what if you just can't DO it? What if you feel like the sky is falling on your head and all you want to do is shut down and escape? Sometimes it's too simplistic to tell yourself that no matter what everything is perfect, when your 'perfection' RIGHT NOW is scary as hell, or sad, or painful, or out-of-this-world amazing, or traumatic, or simply too much to hold ...

Wednesday, February 10, 2016/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (2073)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 5.0
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Don't read unless you want to share the heart of my challenging August

... kinetic light sculpture Tensegrity by Improbable Construction at Lux 2015, Wellington ...

Last week I found myself void, empty, nothing to say. So you didn't hear from me. This week I do have a heart to share, but will make no attempt to wrap this post around 'something you can use'. Only to share the parts of my recent journey I think can be of interest and useful to you, and hope you sense the kind of quiet solidity I am finding in the dark ...

Wednesday, September 2, 2015/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (1361)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 3.0

If life is a mixed bag, why do we throw half of it away?

... cold winter day's end ... sunlight and showers ... light and dark ...

What's happening when you search for answers and keep facing yourself and your healing process for weeks and months and years? When you can see the core deep healing you're creating, even as you cry because it's raw and there's no other way to do it; it's buried so deep it takes great pressure to make the old wound visible and available for healing. And it takes so long!

Is that kind of journey a bad thing? Is there something wrong?

Thursday, August 20, 2015/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (1116)/Comments ()/ Article rating: No rating

How I'm finding safety in the inscrutable and delicate pattern of failure and loss

... the glory of nacreous clouds at sunset ...

On 1 July 2014, after 5 months' intense preparation I launched into the telesummit industry. My launch failed. After another year, 3 more telesummit interviews, 2 new packages and a monumental amount of work I'm still failing, and I now consider I have enough evidence to support my decision to stop ...

Saturday, June 20, 2015/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (1204)/Comments ()/ Article rating: No rating

Message for the fearful and the courageous (one and the same)

... with love from ensyth-maddy, who must constantly practice letting go ... the image is of neon light on the Hutt River at dusk ...

beloved, we wish you this freedom, which maddy is slowly and sometimes with difficulty embracing for her own.

she gets better at remembering the flow has carried her safely this far, and carries her still. blinded by waves and rapids and spray, fearful of dangers seen and hidden alike ...

Wednesday, June 3, 2015/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (1181)/Comments ()/ Article rating: 4.0

How to find your way when you’re abundantly lost in space

... cloud and contrast at dusk over Newlands, Wellington ... image ...

At the end of March everyone and everything went away and I found myself feeling strangely forsaken and deeply frustrated. Then my body threw a curve-ball which knocked me further into outer space ... and deep confusion. All of which allows me to offer a tool you can use to help navigate your own scary mirror mazes, to connect with your peace and clarity again.

Monday, April 20, 2015/Author: maddy schafer/Number of views (2490)/Comments ()/ Article rating: No rating
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